MYOB
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
I don't need anyone to break us apart . Even if we decide to break up, it will be base on our own decision & not anyone else . We did our part by minding our own business & its time to do yours . Its our relationship therefore, we have the right to decide . All these months, I've been going through thick & thin, ups & downs with him, now you want to break us apart just because of what my ex's friend had done to you ??! Firstly, he's my ex & i no longer related to him . Secondly, you have problem with my ex's friend . Its not even my ex . I don't freaking know his freaking friends . So, what does it have to do with me & my boy ? You're a grown up so please think wisely & react accordingly . The one that gives you shit in your past which definitely affects you until now, wasn't me or my ex but that freaking friend of his . Don't drag me & my boy in your problem .
Just so you know, me & my boy had quarrel & argue gazillion times but never did the word 'break up' ever came out from our mouths . So please, don't push things beyond our limit . I still need him to be with me as my pillar of strength . He's my motivation & the reason why i look forward to everyday . Its not fair for me if i have to let him go just because of your self-centered attitude . I love him so much . I won't be able to move on . Not as easy as what you think it will be . Seriously, you can't think only about your own feelings & position . What about mine ? What about his feeling ? He told me about his decision agreeing with your ridiculous wants . But thats only because he respect you as an elder person .
I'm truly upset that our relationship had to be this way, baby . Now i know the reason why you have been behaving that way to me ever since last week . I knew something like this would happen yet I've not prepared myself . Cause i refuse to imagine the moment i'll lose you . This is unfair . First, your little one . Now, your elder one . Guess fate wasn't really on our side despite knowing how much we both love one another .
I'll miss your eyes that loves to stare at me, your nose that i love to pinch, your cheeks that keep rubbing against mine, the only lips which touches mine, your neck that i love to kiss, your hands which fills in the empty spaces within my finger, your body that gives me warmth, the memories that you left, the pain that helps me to get stronger, your voice that used to give me morning calls, your encouragement, playing under the rain with me, cycle with me, comfort me, your goodnight wishes every time before i sleep, your kisses on my forehead, my cheeks, my lips . Basically, everything . I'll miss every single thing i did with you, even to the slightest thing .
Now, things will never be the same . Except my love for you . I'm not sure how i will go through the rest of the days without you . My wish to go countdown with you this year, guess, it won't be able to come true . Thank God, holidays are coming & my CAs are over . I won't be able to concentrate if these were to happen earlier . 2011, please be a great year for me .
I love you, Haziq Syazani & Happy Monthsary in advance .
